Happy Life

Depression: It’s Not What You Think.

Let’s talk about depression. It’s such a deadly thing and yet no one wants to talk about it, much less, seems to understand it. And yet with all the recent deaths of celebrities, we can see just how deadly and important it really is. As someone who has struggled nearly all my life with this,… read more

Letting Go. (The other side)

The Promised Land always lies on the other side of a wilderness. ~Havelock Ellis I’ll be honest, I’ve been in a bit of a wilderness lately. This pregnancy held so much promise for me at the beginning and yet halfway through I found myself completely exhausted, feeling defeated and miserable. My body was tense with… read more

Here’s Your Story. Step inside.

For so long I walked OUTSIDE my story, not willing to face the abuse, the secrets, and the deep sadness I held since I was a child. It was miserable. I was miserable. I would constantly present only the best parts of myself to people I met so that I could be loved. I would… read more

I Knew It Was You

You chose me when I had nothing left And my arms had come up empty from recent tragedies and futile attempts at making sense of our future and what had been taken My soul weighted from the loss of hope and the dream of having another chance, A child to love And yet I knew… read more

On Nesting (and Nearing the End of Your Life!)

  Pregnancy is so weird. On one hand I just want to curl up in a ball and let the world go by while I sip on tea lattes and on the other I MUST DO ALL THE THINGS. I must climb all the mountains, rearrange all the furniture, hang all the picture frames and… read more

To the Lonely at Christmas.

To the lonely at Christmas I see you and I know. I know what it’s like to get together for the first time and have to set the table for one less then you did the year before because cancer came and left you an empty chair I know what it’s like to feel the… read more

Behind the Shadows.

No matter what the eclipses of our lives and no matter where we stand in the darkness, we can be sure that the light will come, the sun will shine again. While the world is darkened with crime and the news is depressing with stories of hate, there is yet a light that shines in… read more

Surrender.

They say just surrender And yet that has been the hardest thing for me To release my grip On things that seem Like they were made For grasping and keeping And protecting With all my being Why is it so hard To relax my mind and body From clawing and clamoring and trying to control… read more

Hope.

“How would you like to live here?” He said, As we walked through that dumpy neighborhood Of run down trailers and dogs on chains And I thought for a second about what he was saying He wasn’t being judgy, he was just trying to cheer me up about my own life, and that’s when I… read more

Soft, Not Strong.

The older I get, the more I think it’s not about how strong we are but about how soft we become. The more I meet people the more I want to know what formed them what hurt them and what still hurts them, and how their soul is moved and affected and changed by the… read more